Since Mother's Day is around the corner... my role as a mom has very much been "in my face" for the past few weeks. Somehow, being a mom this time of the year has lost it's freedom. I now feel like I have to live up to a "standard" or I will not get a gift on the second Sunday of May!!
In reality, our family tries hard to water down this day. In my heart, I'd like nothing better than a simple sleep-in, my girls coming to my bed and telling me they love me, and then, for the rest of the day, I have nothing else to do BUT, stay in bed. I'd like my husband to delegate and run the entire house with the two girls, peacefully sorting out the activities and happenings of the day. I cannot see anything more lovely than to have all my meals prepared and if possible, meals for the rest of the week as well. I am NOT interested in gifts, hankies, perfumes, shoes or even clothes. The greatest gift to a mom is to have a "mental-free" day to herself.
As Letitia enters school life, she is inundated with things to DO to prepare and give me for Mother's day. I know because she tells me and shows me the results! She's been painting, crafting, making things etc and of course, there's the cards, the fundraising gifts and church assortments that comes with such an occasion. I feel for her. She seems to want to do all this but can't really understand the need, afterall, there's nothing much in it for her!!! She is still a kid, bless her little heart!
Mathena is only possesive of me when Letitia is on my lap. I have to grab my cuddles from Letitia nowadays. She is no longer the baby requiring constant care. Mathena has taken to herself the role of preventing Letitia from coming TOO close to me. She'll want a cuddle when she sees Letitia having one. She'll give me a pat-pat on my shoulder while she "car-gle" me. She'll yell, "where are you, mom?" knowing full well that I am STILL in the kitchen washing up. She'll still ask me "where are you going?" at any sign of me tucking them to bed hastily (sometimes, they go down early as they were showing signs of "attacking" each other, or sometimes I am just plain exhausted!!!). She has no clue yet, which is, GREAT!!
I love being a mom. I was actually voted the least likely to have kids in high school as I was all butch and clumsy. Maternal instincts did not appear in my nature or my being at all. I even remembered struggling with Sunday School kids when I was in Uni. NOW, I will not change anything or any of my life for the whole world. I will complain every now and again but, I am generally very contented and joyful with my GOD-given role. I know, I am only doing maybe 65% of what I should and could do with regards to teaching my kids but in my heart, I know I am doing my best and out of love for them. That's my motivation, my guiding rule and my direction. My kids embarrasses me (in public!). I embarrass myself(very often) and we often wonder what went "wrong". My girls will always be a gift to me. The bestest, coolest, undeserved and most precious gifts I can even have.
May all those reading...remember your moms (make that phone call, give that $$ and give that hug!), and have a good time with your family. I am hoping we'll be having fish and chips for lunch!! heeheee!!!
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