Thoughts of Being a SAHM!

Today, I had the pleasure of going to buy food at the nearby foodcourts while little M was taking her nap... I ordered a nice tall milk tea and sat observing the happenings of the local scene.

I guess, being a mom, my thoughts and eyes were drawn to the families and it's relationships. I saw in the eatery, many older men, mostly retired, then older women, obviously lugging bags of today's groceries as well as the spiffy looking working generation. The families were young moms with their kindy-aged or primary aged kids eating their lunch after and before school.

I also saw amongst the food stall owners, many having their little ones with them while juggling the food business. These kids were in their 'playground' and everyone in the food court treated them like they knew them....of course they did!

I was struck with the reality of how BLESSED I was. The fact that I am staying at home, with the girls and being a major part of their lives. My girls will never remember a day of their lives in which I had to go to work. I DID, except they were too young. Alex had to juggle a lot more then, and he even came home earlier than I did (good old Aussie times!).

We made the 'bite the bullet' decision about 6 years ago when we both decided to answer the call to parent our kids, 100% if not at least 50%. This meant that we (one of us!) had to give up a lucrative future/job and it's many 'lures' to the world of 'it's not enough!'. I was the appointed one (though I had the bigger bonus), and I struggle with the idea for at least a year. Said struggling, I never fought the fact or reality as I did not really had a moment spare to think further. Sure I miss the work environment, sure I miss the income but I truly was contented with my new role as a teacher, provider, comforter, housekeeper, etc. The whole year was a journey into motherhood that I HAD ALLOWED GOD TO HELP ME WITH. Because my decision was one I did to honour HIM, he came in with the goods, the attitudes, the right people with the right influence and most of all, the right experiences to draw me closer to HIS heart.

This is not for everyone...not everyone will see our thoughts as wise. We lived with so much less, we scrimp and we save, we calculated and then, calculated again. Our bank accounts were always at it's minimal yet we were never in need. Our hearts were no longer set at the 'things we like to have' but instead filled with the 'moments we can share!'.

Today, I recommit my life as a mom, a wife and a keeper of the home. I am YET to get my first COACH handbag, but that can wait......am counting on the fact that the streets are laid with them in heaven!!!

Talk later